After they've gone, this phrase, keeps resonating in my head and when that happens I know its time to write. I think about myself- a widow, an empty nester, a woman, seemingly alone in the world. I think about the other moms out there whose lives have taken the turn towards the same path, a … Continue reading After They’ve Gone
living after loss
What Does a Smile Say?
What does a smile mean to me these days? What did a smile imply during the first long year after Sonny's death? Does it imply to observers that all is good or does it mask the real heart? The truth lies somewhere in between. So many have told me that the second year is worse … Continue reading What Does a Smile Say?
I am a Badass (and other things I have learned during this last year)
I am a badass. I have survived (up to this point) and tried each and every day to do what Sonny did himself and expected us to do. So I thought I'd toot my own horn, for posterities sake and list some of my badass accomplishments of the last 13 months. I have gotten out … Continue reading I am a Badass (and other things I have learned during this last year)
Love Always Leaves a Mark
We are coming up on the anniversary of Sonny's death. In ways, it feels as if it was yesterday and other ways a lifetime ago. I haven't written here for months, I have attempted but not been able to put words on the screen- at least not words that I wanted anyone to read. I … Continue reading Love Always Leaves a Mark
Having Fun with God
These days have been difficult. First, it was Sonny's birthday, then Thanksgiving and now Christmas. I wrote last time about how I falsely believed it would be easy. Frankly, some days it just plain sucks. Those days are, thankfully, spread out and not every day is a bad day. When Sonny's birthday came around, we … Continue reading Having Fun with God
Reference Points and the Gift of Loneliness
Loneliness. If there is one word to describe widowhood and life for me right now, that would be it. I know I am not alone in this, so many who have lost loved ones struggle with the aloneness. If you look up synonyms for loneliness these are a few of the words you will find: … Continue reading Reference Points and the Gift of Loneliness
Life in the Here and Now
Work, work, work, work, work....I know you are humming that tune in your head now. If it gets stuck there well..... I have changed jobs and am working the most regular hours I have worked in years, even if the are not really regular by comparison to the non-medical world. I also was working both … Continue reading Life in the Here and Now
Who Are You and What Are You Doing Here?
It happened more than a few times in our marriage. I would be sound asleep and sit up look at Sonny and ask him, "Who are you and what are you doing here?". He would laugh, tell me who he was and to go back to sleep, which I would promptly do. I have no recollection … Continue reading Who Are You and What Are You Doing Here?
Living and Loving with Abandon
Today I got a notification from Facebook about a trip Sonny and I took in 2013. That year we celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary and he wanted to surprise me with the honeymoon we never had. He planned for months, with the kids assistance. All I knew was to pack for a trip where I … Continue reading Living and Loving with Abandon
Get Your Sh*t Together
This has been a week, I will not call it hard or difficult because that word would not do it justice. There have been good, bad and ugly events, so I'll just leave it at that. I had an energy audit courtesy of our friends at Duke Energy and as the guy walked through my … Continue reading Get Your Sh*t Together
Momma T's Place 